I sat with GD and Danny at the party. It was really boring but the more I drank the less boring it got. When the clock showed twelve I was so drunk and so bored that I texted Kelly.

Hey sweetheart what’s up?

It didn’t take long until I had my answer.

Not much. I am at home with some friends and I am drinking to make time pas.

I took a sip from my vodka bottle and answered.

Can I come over for a while?

-         Are you seriously drinking that from the bottle!? Danny said and eyed my bottle.

-         I lived on this stuff for a year! I said with a joking tone even though I was completely serious.

Everyone started to laugh with me and my mobile vibrated.

Of course you can!

I emptied the bottle and got up from the floor. The room started spinning but I got it under control quickly.

-         I have to go now. Take it easy with the drinks! I said and hurried away before anyone tried to stop me.

-         See you on monday Lilly! Will yelled before he closed the door.

The silence fell and everyone looked at me.

-         What? I asked.

-         Can you please explain what a hottie like that is doing in you’re home!?

-         I’ve never seen a hotter person in my life!

-         Are you dating him!?

I waited for a while to answer all their questions.

-         Will is just a friend. We’re neighbours so he’s around. I explained.

-         But you were snogging him! Eve said excitedly.

-         I did not! It was just a friend kiss! I said and felt how much I sounded like Will.

-         I really hope so! Lilly said blushing.

-         How do you know him anyways? I asked to change the subject.

-         We’re in the same class and Will has already got a girlfriend!

-         What!? Are you kidding!? I laughed, I just couldn’t picture Will with a girlfriend.

-         No, he’s with Melinda.

-         The read head who thinks she’s so cool? I said and laughed even harder.

-         Yes, something wrong with that? It was a rather obvious take wasn’t it?

-         Yes? I said surprised.

-         Well yes, she’s the most popular girl at school and he’s the most good looking thing that has ever been in this town!

We all laughed at Lilly, she wasn’t the person who called people good looking.

-         But he just moved here and he gets to be with Melinda’s gang?

-         How the hell did he manage that? Eva asked who had been at the school last year.

-         He’s just cool by nature. He doesn’t even try to get friends, he actually usually keep to himself. Usually he sits for himself with his ipod and draws. But he’s so good looking he gets to be with the cool crowd anyways. As if he’s always belonged there, as if it was a natural as breathing. He just feels like a guy who’s done it all seen it all, you know? Lilly said enthusiastically.

-         Aren’t there some funny rumours about him? I asked, that was always fun to hear.

-         Loads! They say he’s got a tattoo and that he’s been arrested once. Do you know if he’s got a tattoo?

-         No, ask him. I smiled.

-         I would never dear to do that! Lilly said and blushed.

We started to laugh again.

-         Please Will, you’ve got to come with me! GD looked desperate.

Melinda had just asked GD and I if we wanted to come to a party tonight. I could see how desperately GD wanted to go.

-         Can’t you go by yourself? I asked him. I really didn’t want to party with these people.

-         I don’t dare to! GD exclaimed and looked so pathetic I couldn’t say no to him.

I got dressed quickly, a pair of black jeans, a shirt and a grey hoodie. I went down to the kitchen took a bottle of vodka from the fridge and a couple of ciders that I put in my bag with my wallet and a package of cigarettes.

-         I’m going to meet GD. Bye. I shouted to mum when I stepped thorough the door.

When I stood outside I realised I could convince Susanna to come with me tonight, she could keep an eye on me, I didn't trust myself yet... 

I knocked on Susanna’s door.

-         Hello. I said happily and kissed her lips as she opened the door.

-         Hi… She said and seem a little shy.

-         Who is it? I heard a couple of girls yell from the living room.

-         No one special. Susanna answered.

-         So I am no one special? I said and raised my eye brows.

-         Oh… you know how it is! Susanna said.

-         Cant you invite “no one special” in?

-         Sure. Susanna sighed.

I followed her to the living room.

Five girls sat there and they all stared at me.

-         Hello. I said with a little smile.

-         This is Will. Susanna said with that shy voice I hated so much.

-         I’ve got to go to the buss. I was just going to ask if you wanted to come to a party witch you obviously doesn’t want… Bye. I said and kissed her on the lips again and went for the door.

I sat next to Susanna and Rodger was almost finish with his speech. He hadn’t said a word about me. I started to relax a bit.

-         Have you ever met someone our age that was addicted to drugs? GD asked. I hit my head in the table it had been so close!

-         Yes I have, a few of them. Rodger answered.

-         Who?

-         I can tell you about one that was very special to me. Rodger started.

-         Here we go… I murmured quietly.

-         I knew a guy named Billy. He was seriously in to drugs, almost killed himself.

-         How old was he?

-         He was like 14 – 15 when he started and 16 when it hit it’s peak.

-         Why was he so important?

-         That I am going to tell you but I am going to have to tell you a bit of history so you understand him, Billy.

The whole class looked interested now, this was what they had been waiting for. I glanced verily at Susanna. Now she would hear the truth about my drug addiction. I took farewell of her in my head, I doubted that she would forgive me for this.

-         So, this guy Billy had a friend named Sam. Billy and Sam were the most popular guys in town, I guess Billy really was the most popular. These guys weren’t popular because they fought or scared people, they were just really nice, charming, funny and just simply had authority and they were extremely handsome. But they were also very mischievous. They had a lot of stuff going on. It all started with a little shop lifting when they were about thirteen. By the time they were fifteen they were at the police station almost every day. All the policemen working on the police station got to know these guys, they were so funny, real nice company! After some time Billy came in to the station under charge for drug possession and was sent to me for a “serious talk” . I pretty much told him “well, I wasn’t expecting anything else, it was just a matter of time” and than we talked about tv shows for the rest of the night until Sam’s mum picked them up. During the coming months Billy got four more charges for drug possession and we started to tell him “Don’t you have anything better to put your money on?”. Another couple of months past and Billy started to get out of control. He was drunk all the time, popped pills like candy and lit up a lot. He did everything you can imagine and Sam was happy to follow his example but he was never in as bad shape as Billy.

-         Is this all really true? A girl asked.

-         Every word. Rodger smiled.

-         Cool! A guy said.

-         Not very. One night I got a phone call at two in the morning. It was Sam callin, yelling in my ear that I had to get there NOW! So I got dressed and ran over there, I had no idea what was waiting for me. When I arrived at the right street I saw a black pile in the middle of the road. I got out of my car and saw Sam, “Help him!” he yelled and pointed at the pile on the road. I ran to the pile. There, in the middle of the street lay Billy in his own vomit, he was shaking and crying. I turned to Sam, shook him and yelled “You’ve got to help him, if he continues this he will die!”. I had to make Simon see how bad this thing with Billy really was. I didn’t want to send Billy to jail as I knew I should. I shook Simon again and could see in his eyes that he had understood what I was talking about even though he was drunk as well. We managed to get Billy to the car and drowe to the hospital.

Rodger stopped talking and just stood there for a while.

-         What happened to Billy than!? A guy shouted out, he looked like he was desperate for the answer.

-         I don’t know, I haven’t seen him since that night. I quit the day after.

-         Did he die?

-         No, I know he didn’t do that.

All the students started blindly in front of them.

-         So my point with all of this, don’t d drugs. They are neither cool, nor hip. They ruin you’re life and it’s really hard to stop.

Applause filled the class room.

-         Oh my god, you were seriously addicted to drugs! You almost died! Susanna’s eyes almost swam over with tears.

-         But I survived… I said and looked at my feet.

-         Thank god you did! Susanna said and hugged me tight.

-         So you forgive me? I whispered.

-         Yes… I don’t think there’s anything about you’re past that can surprise me anymore. Susanna smiled through her tears. 

Susanna and I sat down on the bench in the corridor.

-         I am proud of you. She smiled.

The door at the end of the corridore opened and closed.

-         Fick! I really can’t take this right now! I sighed angrily.

Susanna looked at me with a confused gaze. The guy walking towards me was no one less than Rodger. Luckily he walked right past me, he was walking and reading some papers at the same time. I exhaled.

-         I’ve got to go to the ladies room. Susanna excused her self and walked off.

I took mu Ipod from my pocket and put the head phones in. I slid down on the bench and pulled my hood over my hair.

I felt some one sit down next to me. I guessed it was Susanna. I felt a hand on my shoulder, I took the headphones out and turned my head.

-         Will, long time no see! Rodger smiled happily against me.

-         Hi. I smiled back and gave him a hug, it was actually nice to see him.

-         You look a lot better than the last time I saw you. Rodger said.

-         Yes, that wasn’t one of my best moments…

Susanna came and looked at Rodger and than at me.

-         Rodger, Susanna, Susanna, Rodger. I introduced them.

-         So what have you been up to lately than? I asked Rodger.

-         Not much, they have had to fire three officers since you and Simon left Tim. Rodger laughed.

-         Are you serious! Susanna exclaimed.

-         I am afraid so, these guys were impossible but always really funny!

-         What are you doing now that you don’t have me to take care of than?

-         Nothing, I am travelling around the country telling people my stories about drugs and teens, that’s why I am here.

-         I know. I answered.

-         Yeh?

-         You’re going to talk to my class. I said and smiled at the irony.

-         Well that should be interesting… Is it okay if I tell some stories about you?

-         I’d rather you didn’t… I answered and avoided Rodgers stare.

-         Please! I can’t re write a half hour of speech in five minutes! Rodger begged me.

-         Fine, but you can’t say it’s me. I sighed.

-         Of course not! I can call you Billy.

-         You do that

 - Hi GD. I said.

He was lying in the sofa in the common room. The next second Melinda, Sam and Danny came and threw themselves down in another sofa.

 - God I am tierd! Melinda said and stretched. She was actually looking really good… Susanna and I sat down in the third sofa.

 - Who are you? Melinda asked Susanna.

 - This is Susanna. I introduced her.

 - Hello. Susanna smiled shyly. I took her hand in mine for support. I knew how she felt about meeting new people.

 - Seriously, I have got a fever! I said dramatically and put my hand on my forehead.

 - No you don’t! Susanna smiled.

 - Yes I do, feel. I said and pulled Susanna’s hand to my forehead.

 - You’re not having a fever. She said.

 - It was worth a try… I muttered.

 - Oh god!

 - Can’t you at least feel a little sorry for me? I said and leaned back so my head rested in Susanna’s lap. She started twirling my hair between her fingers.

 - So, how did you meet? Melinda said with an angry glare at Susanna and I.

 - We’re nighbours. I answered. Why the hell was Mel so pissed?

 - Are you guys also going to that police thingie? Danny asked.

 - I wonder what it feel like, taking drugs? GD said.

 - Oh get of it! You’re not supposed to do drugs, it’s not good for you! I said and threw a pillow on GD. Susanna didn’t quite manage to hold back her laughter.

 - So if some one offered you drugs you would say no? Danny asked me.

 - Of course I would! I said.

 - Yes, of course you would. Susanna said and looked me sharply in the eyes. I wouldn’t, I knew I wouldn’t be able to resist it.

 - I wonder if this police has ever met someone our age that was addicted to drugs?

 - Can’t we talk about something else? I asked, I couldn’t take it anymore.

 - Aren’t you supposed to be in class? Susanna asked me.

 - No, I’ve got art right now…. I answered her.

 - Let’s go there than. Susanna said and got ready to leave.

 - No we’re not. I said and pulled Susanna down in my lap.

 - Why not?

 - You know Simon? I asked Susanna quietly, I didn’t want the others to hear me.

 - Yes. Susanna nodded.

 - His mum is the art teacher. I could see the others strain to hear what I said. They often tried to get information on my background.

 - What? Susanna said in surprise.

 - Yes, let’s just say I am not her favourite person in the world… She thinks I destroyed Simon.

 - Hm, I think we should go anyways. Come along! Susanna said, took my hand and started dragging me along.

 - Than you’re going to have to hold my hand the entire time!

 - Sure babe. Susanna said and started to walk.

 - See you later. I said to Danny, GD, Sam and Melinda.

 - See you. Melinda said with ice in her voice.What the hell was with her today? I put my arm around Susanna and we walked to the art class.

 - Oh, you’re here again. Kim said angrily as Susanna and I walked in to the classroom.

 - It’s not voluntarily. I muttered.Susanna put her hand in mine and I gathered some energy from it.

 - Can’t you just ditch? Kim asked me.

 - That’s the first time someone has told me that. I smiled mockingly and sat down at a table with Susanna. I could feel Kim’s stare burning in my neck.

 - She was nice. Susanna whispered to me.

 - Always nice to meet her! I smiled sarcastically.

 - We’re going to talk about expressionism today. Can some one give an example of an expressionism painting? Kim asked.

 - What the hell is expressionism!? A blond girl laughed.

 - No one? Kim asked disappointed.

 - Edward Munch’s skriet. I answered after a long silence.

 - Good. Kim said coolly. What marks an expressionism painting? No answer agin.

Even though I didn’t like Simon’s mum I felt a little sorry for her. There had been a totally different standard on the art class back home.

 - You have to use a lot of colour, and there’s mostly no real motive, the artist wants to express a feeling. I answered dully.

 - How do you know all this stuff? Susanna asked me.

 - Dad thought me. I answered bitterly.

 - Was he interested in art?

 - He was an artist. I answered.Kim gave us an assignment where we were supposed to paint our own expressionism painting. Susanna and I spent the entire lesson splashing around some paint, laughing and having fun. At the end of the lesson Kim walked over to out table.

 - How can you possibly know things like that? She asked me.

 - Is that really so odd?

 - Well on the art lessons I’ve had with you you’ve been drunk out of your mind and probably high too. Kim answered.

The class’s attention was immediately turned to us. I felt Susanna by my side and decided I was not gonig to let Kim get me.

 - I haven’t been drunk my entire life…

 - Well, very close to. Kim snorted.

 - I know you hate me. I am sorry about that thing with Simon you know… I said and looked her in the eye.Kim locked at my picture for a long time with out a word.

 - I doesn’t hate you, I never had. I did let you sleep on my kitchen floor for three years didn’t I? Besides you’re so annoyingly good at art.

 - Well, I can be quite charming. I smiled.

 - You’re a lot more charming now than when you threw up all over my tables. Kim smiled and walked of.

 - Tell Simon hi from me. I yelled to Kim as Susanna and I left the classroom. 

 - Will, time to get up. Mum said and shook me a little.

 - I don’t feel very well. I think I’ll stay at home today… I said and tried to sound as week as possible.

 - Okay. Mum said and left my room.

Now I didn’t have to see Rodger, great! I thought, turned around and fell asleep again.

 - Forget it Will, you’re going to school. Susanna yelled and I woke up.

 - What are you doing here!?

 - We were having breakfast together, remember? You’re mum said you were sick.

 - I am! I said and pulled the cover tighter around me.

 - Hell no! Susanna said and lay down beside me.

 - Yes I am! I exclaimed.

 - No you’re not! Why don’t you want to go to school? I should have known by now that I couldn’t lie to Susanna.

 - Rodger are visiting… I mumbled.

 - Who’s Rodger?

 - A police man from my home town. I answered her.

 - What’s so awfull about that?

 - You don’t get it!

 - Explain than!

 - No! I continued to yell.

 - Well how am I supposed to get it than?! Susanna yelled back.

 - Do you remember when I told you Simon and I were regulars at the police station?

 - Yes.

 - Well, Rodger was the police who most oftenly took care of us, the guy knows everything about me. It’s like I am trying to run away from my past but it just keeps catching up with me!

 - It’s actually amazing what a life you’ve had to even have these problems!

 - I know I was totally fucked up but the worst part is I could easily go back to that, I miss it. I confessed to Susanna. I felt good to finally speak my mind.

 - Well, I’ll be here to stop you.

 - What would I do with out you? I said and kissed her hair.

 - You should get dressed, we’re going to miss the buss! Susanna said and jumped out of bed.

 - Didn’t you just hear what I told you?

 - Well yes, but didn’t you say Rodger were cool?

 - Yes, I guess…

 - So than he won’t tell anyone about you. Come one now, we’re really going to miss the bus unless we hurry.

 - I can’t believe I am going to do this! I sighed as I pulled my red jeans on.

 - I can come as support if you want to.

 - Of course you have to! I smiled and pulled a Metallica shirt over my head. I finished by strapping on a belt, put on a hoddie and some eye liner.

 - Are you ready!? Susanna yelled as she ran down the stairs.

 - Bye mum! I yelled as I ran out the door.

I lit up a cigarette as Susanna and I waited for the bus, I was shaking in my entire body.

 - Do you really have to smoke? Susanna asked annoyed.

 - I am nervous!

 - You’re hopeless! She smiled.

 - What stuff have you done, more precisely? Susanna asked as we sat on the bus.

 - Everything you can think of. I smiled and walked down memory lane.

 - Like?I decided that I could tell Susanna some of the stuff I had done, just not the drugs.

 - I don’t know… Stealing, knife treath, vandalism.

 - Knife treath!?

 - Shh! Don’t shout it out like that!

 - How the hell did you not end up in jail!? Susanna exclaimed.

 - Well I am just so incredibly adorable! They just didn’t have the heart to throw me in jail! I laughed.

 - That’s insain!

 - Come on, can you emagine me doing thing like that, this cute face? I said and smiled my most charming smile.

 - No.

 - Or could you? I said and arranged my face to a serious expression.

 - You’re scaring me! Susanna laughed.

 - I can’t believe Melinda is actually flirting with you! Or I guess you’re sort of made for each other. GD said as we left the common room.

 - Flirting with me? I asked confused.

 - Yes, she likes you, anyone can tell!

 - She does?

I had honestly not noticed, my thoughts were filled with Kelly and worrying about Friday.